19,380 people  / Mommy
Wow...i just realized how many people in the last 2 years have visited your site. OVER 19,000 people.....whew....thats alot of people.  I hope that each visitor learned something about love, and life, like what you have taught us. You continue to teach from the grave. Amazing - what an Angel you are...... Close

Your little sister  / Mommy
The little angel you sent to us is turning one in 2 days. Its so hard to believe that she is. I feel like most days i am stuck on the day she was 3 months and 14 days old. I waited paitienly for that day. The day she would surpass your life. It was almost as if she wouldnt. That time would freeze...and again, it did. Until i realized that she is grown, she is starting to become a little toddler.  She will be 1 in a few days, its so hard to understand where you would have fit in our lives now. I see you with the kids, see that there is that gap, yet it seems so far away to realize it. 

I had Ceira at the Dr today, shes had chronic ear infections repeatedly, and they want her to go see a ENT doctor....The Doctor gave me the number to call to make the appt, then i remembered...hey, 215-590-XXXX that is a familiar number...i then realized quickly the number i remember, 215-590-2944 is where i would call each night to check on you before bed....its the CICU number at CHOP. Then realizing what number they gave me, I asked for another referal, they again, said not knowing, "chop is the best, and they are the ones we deal with for ENT docs." If they only knew......

They said her appt will be in mid May, and she will probably schedule surgery for Tubes in her ears. How can i let my little girl go in for surgery again. I thought about this before, even before i knew it was CHOP. I cringe over making that decision, or signing those releases to do the surgery. The cath that you had done, was so minor. Thats what i was told over and over, compared to what you had already been threw.  This would also be a very minor surgery, but how i can i relive this...I dont know if i can. Its a weird twist or Irony. Would i trust CHOP ever again, yes. Would i let my children go there, YES, but can i do this alone....i am not sure. 
I  kinda cry and laugh at the same time. Like this is an awful joke. I just dont know how to deal with this yet. I guess i will just have to wait and see. I at least have a few months to learn how....... 

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Disney World  / Mommy
We spent the last week in disney. It was our first vacation since you passed. We left and escaped our problems very soon after you died (2 weeks) but we were in denial still. Like in auto mode. This time it was real, The pain and the missing was real. YOu were real. YOu were  missing. 

I watched Owen and Ceira light up as they watched the awsome fireworks, i started to tear up with what was missing. In the moment, at the "happiest place on earth" with "dreams come true" playing over the fireworks in the sky, i realized, i am missing something so important. When i teared up. I thought for a second, "you are so silly" hes in a better place, and tried again, to make myself snap out of it. Soon after i looked by way of Dad, and he had the tears running down his face also. When we both realized we were crying, it was like a silent "i know" was passed between us. We knew what we were thinking, and knew what we were missing. Dad looked at me, and said "hes here" i knew that, and we just thought of you the rest of the week.  

We left a special Legacy for you at Epcot. They said no memorials were allowed to be left. So we left a special Heart graphic, with your name "Colin S." and your death date below, 10-22-04. We will know what it means. I wanted you to always be with us, as we visit each year, since we plan to make this a tradition. Owen and Ceira had so much fun, i often wondered how you would have liked it. 

I wish you were physically with us on vacation. We sure did miss you each second. I know you were there when ever i saw Pooh bear.....thats what you said you were excited about. I think now, thats what the medium was talking about......you liked and were excited about pooh. I get it now.

I love you. We sure did miss you....
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how terrible  / Tom (none)
im so incredibly sorry for your loss.  Im only 13 so i cant imagine how terrible that must feel.  im very sorry. Close

God Bless our Angels...  / Suzette O'Flynn (Angel Relation )
Wow, I am sorry to read that you too lost a child...my heart goes out to you and your family. I am deeply shocked at how our paths have crossed, the distant family relation...fate sure takes it's course in mysterious ways. I am married into this wonderful O'Flynn family but my husband Kevin too was told by his dad that all O'Flynns are related in someway. We'll have to keep in touch...please feel free to email me anytime and know that I too think about you and any parent who has lost a child....nothing compares :o(

My prayers are with you as this holiday season is approaching yet another "New Year"...

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Mediumship / Mommy
So i am totally against this medium thing, but I so believe i got to talk with you tonight. I am so glad i did it, and so happy i got to hear from you. I am glad to know you dont blame me, and glad to know you are being taken care of by grandmom. I love you, and will make sure all you said will be taken care of. As you told me, i look forward to meeting you again, when you come back (your soul) to us in our next child, which will be a boy. And yes, as you requested, we  will name you what you asked. We love you! I am so glad you were with me. XOXOXO Close