My thoughts and prayers are with you  / Kim Quinn
Hello,
I saw your note to Colin today and was thinking about you and your family. My daughter Hannah is buried at Whitemarsh and is close to Colin's grave. Whenever I am there I visit many of the babies and wonder about their parents and siblings and wish I could let them all now I am thinking about all of them. So I just wanted to let you know I am thinking about you and praying for you this Christmas. Take Care.
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Thinking of you all~~  / Valerie
Hello,
It has been quite some time that I have written on our angel Colins' site but please do know that I think of you often and wonder how things are going with you and your family. I have been working two jobs for a few months as my hubby was quite sick for a few months and the night he went back to work, they laid 25 people off and he unfortunatly was one of them. I really am not really into the holidays this year like I usually am but I always think how I should stop feeling sorry for myself and think of what you are dealing with on a daily basis. I bet the baby is getting big and big brother. They are at a wonderful age for Santa Claus. I miss those days when Jonathon was a baby. Big baby...he is 19 LOL
I want to wish you and your family a Merry Christmas and to let you know that you are in my heart daily and Colin is flying with the angel for sure.
Hugs...
Valerie
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Missing you this week  / Mommy
I miss you so much this week. I am preparing for Christmas, yet another without you. We try to do the christmas spirit thing, and try to be so happy for our kids, but when someone is missing its so hard. I just wanted you to know i miss you so much. I am sorry i havent been around to visit you lately. Its been harder than i thought it would. I am so sad - missing you. I just hope its so much more beautiful up there. 
We love you!
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One more day  / Mommy
The words to this song, are so true and so real to me. More than some songs, this song seems to always pull me in. Like exactly how i feel about Colin. 

(also is the background music to this site.)

Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me --
It could be for anything
I didnt ask for money, Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe Id be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First thing Id do, is pray for time to crawl
Then Id unplug the telephone - And keep the tv off
Id hold you every second
Say a million I love yous
Thats what Id do, with one more day with you 

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe Id be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

Leave me wishing still, for one more day
Leave me wishing still, for one more day
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Thanks - giving  / Mommy
I had to think long and hard about what i was thankful for this year. The more time that goes by, the more i miss you. Two years ago, i lost you forever. I was so selfish, and wanted you with us. I ended up with out you. I sit back and watch Owen, and Jared, and even Ceira is starting to get involved when we go to Bubbie and Poppys for dinner, and i remember how special thanksgiving was to me. 

I feel each year i fall in this rut this time of the year. Like i need to learn to deal with holidays all over again. Christmas music, makes me cringe. It used to make me feel festive. I guess you can say i have become real good at hiding my true feelings.

Dont get me wrong, i am extreemly thankful for what i do have. The family i have, the healthy kids i have-- it just dosent compare to what i dont have. I feel like i dont have so much more.  Daddy often says hes glad your out of pain. I would much rather have to fight for you to live, than never have had you. I fought for 3 months, and could have continued on for 30 years!

I watch Aunt Colleen who just had a baby, go threw the sleepless nights, and being exhausted....its quite comical, becuase she could never understand what I went threw when i had you. Now shes getting a taste of it. -- and the comical part is, that her baby is healthy, and needs no extra care a sick child like you, did. 

I guess you can say i am feeling sorry for myself this week. Or at least thats how i feel. I hate that no one remembers you--or if they do, its not spoken of. I realized tonight, that each year, at Thanksgiving dinner, we have the same conversation about Audrey (your great grandmom) who died before we were married. They all talk about how "out there" she was before she died, and what they went threw, and how awful it was. I also sit almost seperated from the converstation because i lived it. More than any of them (your great uncles/aunts) did. I lived it true, but it was my son. It would make me feel good if i had you remembered each year like that.

So this thanksgiving, this is the 3rd one without you. I feel like its getting deeper set in my heart. I feel like you are like a watercolor painting, thats just starting to have all the rain run the colors together. You are fading. Your pictures, your memory, and your life.

I wonder....what am I thankful for? You are my hero- you always will be. I was asked- "who would you most like to meet?" my answer to that question, will always remain the same....."i would like to meet God.--" if you ask why?- its because i really would like to ask him "why."

I love you. The days will never be the same. Much love and Thanks for you being in my heart. Close

I miss you  / Mommy
I miss you more each day, and Halloween is never the same. I think of how old you would have been, and what you would have been. Most of all, its the holiday closest to when you died. I remember that I still have your Superman costume in the closet, that you were supposed to wear. I still have it in the package, and all.  I couldnt get rid of it. I still cant. I have my 3 pumpkins lined up for you. One for you, one for Owen, and one for Ceira on the porch. Yours was the one with the angel halo. I miss you, and the days will never be the same. Any - day. I love you. We missed you tonight. Happy halloween little man. I know you are with us. Close